Lately, I’ve been a bit speechless. Wordless, so my blog has gone dark for several days, perhaps more than a week.

My attention was on troubling thoughts about how to pay bills, make enough money to pay for luxurious items that I want; how to feel happy about my current situation.

Mostly though, my attention was on how much of what I don’t like is a result of my responsibility, or lack of, for things in my past that affect my present.

I am here in this condition, I realize, solely because of decisions I made in past times.

The old saying, “what you see is what you get,” does not exactly apply. For me, it’s more like “what you decide is what you get.” At least it appears that way today, because I can see where I’ve let others sway my decisions. But there’s the rub: I let others…